I am considered an ##essentialworker
. I still have to engage with my clients daily who are deemed indigent to ensure that they have food, water, medicine, attending to their hygiene, etc. all while providing good counseling services to help during this difficult time. I find it amazing that when I ask how they are handling what's going on, most are pretty calm. I realized that they live in chaos everyday so this isn't anything new to them.
But it's new to most of us. It's new to me. I realized I was starting to get very irritable - more than most 😉 - and could't pinpoint as to why. I have so many conflicting feelings about what's going on and how it impacts me. I want to be there for my clients and ensure they are safe but that comes with a cost for my safety. I have fleeting thoughts if it is worth it while still feeling thankful that I have a job. I feel somewhat jealous that my husband gets to work from home (he is also a therapist) and I still need to work in the community. Lots of irrationality going on. .
I feel like I am upside down in my personal routine. My workouts have gone to shit. I am eating like crap. I don't even remember the last time I made a "real meal". Most things just aren’t making sense and I’m sure they won’t for awhile. I just need to find my footing in this new reality.
In the end, I realize that #itsokaynottobeokay
at this time and there are no right answers. Just keep soldiering on and find happiness in whatever you can during these darkest of times.
Share your thoughts below. I want to hear how others are handling everything - the good, the bad, and the ugly.
Don't worry. This picture was taken pre-quarantine aka the good ole days.